So they asked the LORD, “Where is he?” And the LORD replied, “He is hiding among the baggage.” 1 Samuel 10:22 NLT
In our scripture verse today, Saul was doing his best to hide from being chosen as king. The lots were cast, he was chosen, yet he was hiding among the baggage. When the people could not find him, they asked God. Of course, He knew Saul was hiding and He knew right where he was at. What Saul didn’t know, didn’t realize, is that you can’t hide from God.
Have you ever been guilty of doing something, saying something, or even thinking something you were so ashamed of, that you hoped no one would ever find out? We would rather forget these things ever happened. We wish we could take back those words, or erase the thoughts from our mind. Many have had things happen to them that they don’t want to remember. Sometimes we can be so hurt, so mistreated, it would be easier to forget it than to deal with the guilt, shame, and even the scars left behind.
Often times, when faced with these circumstances, we hide. We allow the shame, the guilt, and the fear of exposure to drive our actions, so we hide. From each other. From ourselves. And from God. After all, if we can keep it hidden, we can pretend it’s not there, right? We do everything we can to bury the feelings, bury the guilt, bury the pain.
But God knows all our hiding places. God knows all our faults. Every thought, word, and deed. He knows. No matter how hard we struggle to keep them hidden. He knows about the most embarrassing thing we have ever done. He knows our shame. He also knows our pain.
The good news is that even after we have come to Him. Given our life to Him. Put our faith in Him. He is still knocking on the door of our soul. He longs for us to come out of our hiding places and bear our deepest, darkest, and most painful secrets. He already knows them anyway. He longs for us to share with Him, not to humiliate us, but to offer healing and comfort.
When we share our hearts with Him, our WHOLE heart, we open ourselves up to the fullness of His power in our lives. The power of His presence. The power of love, mercy, and forgiveness. The power of grace. It’s a mighty, healing power found only in Him.
We can choose to live our life hiding. Trying desperately to hide the pain, the shame, and the guilt. But we will be so busy keeping hidden, that we are exhausted. And ultimately miss out on God’s best for our life. Invite Him in. Even into your hiding places in your soul. He is waiting.